When I'm down and low

As I've started this journey I've realized a few things about me. One of my biggest things is that I can have a temper. I'm a firm believer in "treating others the way you'd like to be treated." And it's pretty hard to have respect for someone when they don't respect you.

Now, as I've also mentioned before, I'm Irish. I know it's a stereotype, but I have an Irish temper...I can get pretty pissed off pretty quickly when people decide to be stupid. So that being said, it's safe to say that it's something I have to work on quite often to curb. I like to say that I do pretty good with controlling myself and not saying hurtful things to people around me...however I've noticed that this has led to me being walked over quite a bit by people who claim to be my 'friends'.

I will say right now I hate being the doormat. I'm the middle of five girls, so quite frankly I've often been the doormat. However as a now (mostly) adult I will say that I've started to stand up for myself and it's started to weed out the impostors. I've lost a few friends, and quite frankly it hasn't seemed to be a bad thing, but I've gained some new ones and my relationships have gotten even stronger with the ones who've stuck with me. There have been ups and downs to this and it's been incredibly stressful and painful, but I'm starting to realize that I need to just suck it up and tell 'em off.

Anger is such a hard thing to control or even to quell. I care so much about the people that are around me that I often find myself holding onto hard feelings that I can't seem to get rid of. I carry around so much anger and bitterness, but I'm still the ever present friend who would do anything for anyone. I've started to be able to put those feelings aside because in the end, it's only hurting me. It doesn't hurt who I'm angry at - they couldn't care less.

Well here goes. My goal of the week is to let go. To let me be me and say screw them. This is my life and my story. I will lean on God to help me with this journey and this goal that I have for myself. Because God knows I'm going to need His help...probably more than I even know.

Here are some Bible verses that I'm going to be carrying around with me through the week

Ephesians 4:31
Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.

Ephesians 4: 26-27
Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil.

Proverbs 15:1
A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

Psalm 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

Hopefully that can help some of you guys out too...whether you believe in God or not. Being angry hasn't ever helped a bad situation get better. Have a great day :)

Peace

O.O what the...

Ok, I'm just typing this up super quick to let you guys know what's going on. So I started try the Mango Thin stuff and well...it's had some...interesting side effects. I'm not one to talk all about bodily functions on the internet or anything like that, but I mean this is an experiment to help people out.

So I noticed that I've had to urinate A LOT more since I started using the supplement and that, well, my urine was...how can I put this? Umm neon yellow. Now when I say neon, I mean sharpie yellow highlighter neon yellow. At first I thought "hey maybe I need to drink more water. Maybe it's just concentrated." Well I started drinking more water than what I was (which tends to be a bit) and that didn't really help at all. I also started to get headaches and just felt icky.

So in the end, I've stopped taking the supplement. It made me a little too worried and nervous about what it was doing on my insides there. Now don't get me wrong, it might work for other people. Everyone is different. No doubt about it. It just didn't work for me. If you try it out, let me know if it helped you or whatnot!

Peace

A Curious Experiment

Okay so it's pretty late (or pretty early depending on your perspective) and it's my first all-nighter this semester. I'm taking a break from homework and I figured I'd tell you about my little experiment.

I know that many of you have thought about trying 'diet pills' or maybe have even tried them. I've always been skeptical, and I've read some pretty negative things. So I figured I'd find out for myself and share the lovely experience with all y'all :)

For one month I'll be trying something called "Mango Thin." I picked it up on sale for $5 at Walgreens while I was home for the weekend. It's made with raspberry ketone and green tea. You take 2 tablets a day (with two separate meals) for 30 days. So here goes.

Peace